Involved.
You did not consent to the zip tie 2 times I believe it was even though you had no other option in that situation.
You were also stalling as hard as you could. I also told you not to talk, but you kept talking so you could alert people I guess? And you're trying to make them feel sorry...
Involved.
I shot your friend outside the house not long before because he came to the house unarmed, locked it and took guns. You would've seen his body outside. It was obviously still not safe.
I think that for your own safety that if you don't see their hands you should be able to shoot them. Often people have pistols in their hands, but their hands are behind a barricade and you have no clue if they're about to shoot you or not.