Why does having little posts matter? You have to start somewhere. I've been a part of multiple Garry's mod communities, I know how forums and applications work.
First off, you're not handling this situation maturely, that's already a bad sign. Second, you shouldn't apply for a position if you're inactive, what's the point then?
Sorry, doesn't matter if you know me or not bud. It doesn't matter what reasons you have, the fact of the matter is, is that you can't dedicate enough time to the community.