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Punishment Type: Ban
Punishment Subtype: Server Ban
Appeal Type: Apology
Which staff member issued the punishment?: @Tyla Jai
How long were you banned/blacklisted for?: Permanent
Your Steam Name: Egoist
Your Roleplay Name: Dante Redd
Your SteamID: STEAM_0:0:524602103
Why were you punished?: Being racist over discord and threatening to do bad things to server
Why should this appeal be considered?: Firstly, I'd like to start this appeal by saying I'm extremely sorry. I’m really sorry for all the things I’ve said and to the people I said them to. I had no malicious intent when sending those messages. I was just really angry at the world at the time, as I was going through some difficult times.
It’s been almost two years now, and back then, I was in a really bad place. I had left school about a year prior and didn’t have a job because I had been fired. I developed a bad habit of constantly drinking alcohol by myself and abusing substances in my room most nights. I had no job, and my mother was diagnosed with cancer, which added to my depression. My real-life friend Andrew, knowing what I was going through, introduced me back to playing Perp. After getting back into Perp and enjoying it, it was genuinely some of the most fun days and nights of my life, and at the time, it was the best escape from my problems.
However, I still left my problems unresolved and had no real way of dealing with them long term, except distracting myself. Unfortunately, Andrew and I had fallen out just a week or so after I started playing Perp again, partly due to me being a bad person and constantly being under the influence. One night, I said some bad things, and with him being a mod at the time, he reported me, and I was banned for a month.
After losing my only real escape from my problems, I was enraged and completely lost control, I snapped at Andrew and saying some really personal things about him and his family. At that point, I felt like I had reached the point of no return in my head. During our conversation, he told me who had banned me, and I then found a mod and said some truly disgusting and racist things toward that person.
I don’t mean to trauma dump or make you feel sorry for me, as most of the things affecting my personal life were my own doing, and I shouldn’t have taken it out on others. This is just my story of what led to me getting banned on Perp and why I did/said the things I did. By no means do I condone these actions. I know I was in the wrong, and even to this day, I can’t forgive myself for the things I said. I did it out of frustration, and there is still no way to justify my actions.
Since then, I've grown as a person. I've managed to secure a job that I like and have now worked at for over a year. I've made a lot of new friends, and fortunately, Andrew and I resolved our issues not long ago. I feel like I've had a lot of time to grow as a person.
I have two reasons for writing this apology. One of them is that the ban is a record of the person I used to be and the terrible things I did. I want to redeem myself and make up for my actions. I really do hope I didn’t genuinely hurt anyone with the things I said and did, as it was never my intent in the slightest. I'm truly sorry.
My second reason is that Perp was my favourite game, and I had to sell my PC to buy a car for my job at the time. After some time working, I’ve managed to build a new PC and would love to come back and play. However, I understand that what I've done isn't something that can just be overlooked and forgiven easily. I would love to start playing again. Thank you for reading, I would like to finish by saying once again I'm sorry.
Ross
Punishment Subtype: Server Ban
Appeal Type: Apology
Which staff member issued the punishment?: @Tyla Jai
How long were you banned/blacklisted for?: Permanent
Your Steam Name: Egoist
Your Roleplay Name: Dante Redd
Your SteamID: STEAM_0:0:524602103
Why were you punished?: Being racist over discord and threatening to do bad things to server
Why should this appeal be considered?: Firstly, I'd like to start this appeal by saying I'm extremely sorry. I’m really sorry for all the things I’ve said and to the people I said them to. I had no malicious intent when sending those messages. I was just really angry at the world at the time, as I was going through some difficult times.
It’s been almost two years now, and back then, I was in a really bad place. I had left school about a year prior and didn’t have a job because I had been fired. I developed a bad habit of constantly drinking alcohol by myself and abusing substances in my room most nights. I had no job, and my mother was diagnosed with cancer, which added to my depression. My real-life friend Andrew, knowing what I was going through, introduced me back to playing Perp. After getting back into Perp and enjoying it, it was genuinely some of the most fun days and nights of my life, and at the time, it was the best escape from my problems.
However, I still left my problems unresolved and had no real way of dealing with them long term, except distracting myself. Unfortunately, Andrew and I had fallen out just a week or so after I started playing Perp again, partly due to me being a bad person and constantly being under the influence. One night, I said some bad things, and with him being a mod at the time, he reported me, and I was banned for a month.
After losing my only real escape from my problems, I was enraged and completely lost control, I snapped at Andrew and saying some really personal things about him and his family. At that point, I felt like I had reached the point of no return in my head. During our conversation, he told me who had banned me, and I then found a mod and said some truly disgusting and racist things toward that person.
I don’t mean to trauma dump or make you feel sorry for me, as most of the things affecting my personal life were my own doing, and I shouldn’t have taken it out on others. This is just my story of what led to me getting banned on Perp and why I did/said the things I did. By no means do I condone these actions. I know I was in the wrong, and even to this day, I can’t forgive myself for the things I said. I did it out of frustration, and there is still no way to justify my actions.
Since then, I've grown as a person. I've managed to secure a job that I like and have now worked at for over a year. I've made a lot of new friends, and fortunately, Andrew and I resolved our issues not long ago. I feel like I've had a lot of time to grow as a person.
I have two reasons for writing this apology. One of them is that the ban is a record of the person I used to be and the terrible things I did. I want to redeem myself and make up for my actions. I really do hope I didn’t genuinely hurt anyone with the things I said and did, as it was never my intent in the slightest. I'm truly sorry.
My second reason is that Perp was my favourite game, and I had to sell my PC to buy a car for my job at the time. After some time working, I’ve managed to build a new PC and would love to come back and play. However, I understand that what I've done isn't something that can just be overlooked and forgiven easily. I would love to start playing again. Thank you for reading, I would like to finish by saying once again I'm sorry.
Ross
