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Punishment Type: Ban
Appeal Type: Apology
Which staff member issued the punishment?: Spoon
How long were you banned/blacklisted for?: Permanent

Your Steam Name: marie
Your Roleplay Name: N/A
Your SteamID: STEAM_0:0:238731403

Why were you banned/blacklisted?: 1.4, 1.6, 2.5 - User when asked why they killed a person responded with "skill issue" then said they have 6 alt accounts. NITRP // Banned for Enforcer Tillin

Why should this appeal be considered?: I would like to preface this by saying that I understand that it has not been long since my last appeal but the previous one was denied partially because of the belief I was alting the day before the ban. This was not the case; I had not touched that account or the server for around 3 months when I made that appeal and had made it aware to A1L that the most recent alt was mine so it could be banned.

This server means alot to me despite the fact I havent really ever gotten a chance to really play it properly, the first time I played was in march 2024 or so and I only got about 30 minutes of playtime in before I was permanently banned for a comment I had made in a sit while being disrespectful to the admin taking it (I havent gotten the chance to apologise to you spoon and I dont know if youre still around but if you are I sincerely apologise for my conduct towards you 2 years ago). I never really had a chance to play the server or really even grasp the rules or how to play before I got banned. I thought at the time that because of the way I had acted then that I would have no chance of ever getting unbanned and as such I had then turned to alting. It took me around a while to be able to really get a chance to play on any of these accounts and eventually everything clicked for me and I started enjoying the gamemode alot once I realised how to play. I had attempted to make an appeal at the time of which both were denied about a year ago which only furthered my belief that I would never get a chance to ever play the server in a proper fashion ever again, which ended up with me making more alts and digging the hole deeper for myself out of desperation with the thought of me having no chance of reconciliation with the server staff over my initial wrongdoings. Recently I have stopped using alt accounts completely as I want a chance to be rehabilitated in some form back into the community and get the second chance I never really thought I had any opportunity of getting previously. I want to be able to play the server again, I have significantly changed in the 2 years since my original ban, I have matured, learned how to actually conduct roleplay and have become a much more mature person. I have been as of late apologising to a few of the staff members I have previously affected with my behaviour in the past and attempting to reconcile with as many people as I can. I understand the severity of my past actions, I cannot put into words how sorry I am for what I have done in the past. I feel a major level of remorse and guilt over my past actions and I am extremely sorry. I understand that many of you who will be reading this dont know me and will probably have a negative view on me from the start and I would like to be able to prove that I am a changed person and that I will be able to uphold the high community standards of this server. I plead for whoever reads this to please consider my appeal, perpheads is probably the only reason I kept playing gmod for as long as I have as all the other servers I used to enjoy are gone now and perp is the only one I still get a high level of enjoymemt out of from roleplaying and interacting with the community. Please forgive me for my past, grant me the second chance to be an upstanding player and uphold the high standards of this community and allow me to put this long list of alts and past disrespect and bad conduct behind me so I can make a new path for myself as an upstanding member of the community. Thank you for taking the time to read this far.

Additional Information: If needed to contact me I can provide my discord username to talk further, ariari.ariari
 
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