Blacklist Apology (Admin Meeting)

[Alisto Farno]

Punishment Type: Blacklist
Appeal Type: Apology
Which staff member issued the punishment?: @A1L
How long were you banned/blacklisted for?: Permanent

Your Steam Name: Alisto Farno
Your Roleplay Name: Alisto Farno
Your SteamID: STEAM_1:1:169869749

Why were you punished?: 1.2, 1.6, 3.6 - User was asking for another player to kill them, then when they were ragdolled started throwing homophobic slurs, when being questioned told me they didn't and not that they remember.

Why should this appeal be considered?: Well I'd first like to start off with how much i regret ruining my opportunity to play on such a server. You know at the time I didn't realize how good the server was and I took that for granted. I feel I've learned to enjoy playing these servers the way they are supposed to be played and actually participate in the community the way it was designed. I feel i'm ready and have dealt with the repercussions and am ready to bounce back and redeem myself for bad behavior and make it up to and prove to all of the staff members that people do change!

Additional Information: I would really appreciate the opportunity to come back. I truly apologize for the stupid behavior that you guys had to put up with. And I know you guys have to deal with guys like that all the time but I want to be able to have the chance to prove myself and I mean anything. If we can arrange something like I get unbanned but I have to at least go a week without any major mess ups with the rules or even smaller but dumb and intentional stuff or i get perma banned again. I don't know though it's up to you guys at the end of the day the only reason I brought up that solution is so that you guys can build trust with me again and see if I can sustain good behavior which im absolutely sure I can this time around I just need the second chance please and thank you!

 

[Alisto Farno]

I just truly can't believe I said something like this. It's honestly so embarrassing to go back and look at that. It's distasteful and ugly and I don't even truly believe in what I said there it was just childish behavior that was out of spite, absolutely immature on my part. Now I do believe in free speech but I do NOT believe in hate speech. There are no excuses for what was said and I now more than ever understand that I'm just so disappointed & ashamed of myself for even having said nasty things in this screenshot. I will say the time that I've had to think about my actions has really brought me to a position of change. I completely understand why you guys do not tolerate this type of action. I do feel as though I've made a considerable change and flushed all those brainwashed stupid statements out of my brain. What's crazy is that even though this is online saying things like that you never know what someone is going through and I had a real thought about this just cause I can't see the other human through the screen doesn't mean you can't say hurtful things and hurt their feelings. Where all humans and I feel like I had to change in order to become a better man and ending stuff like that was the first step to becoming a better person to others whether that be online or IRL. I'm sorry If I offended anyone I can understand, this situation has made me better versed in human psychology and the fact that words hurt and it's unfair to treat people like that. Sorry, thanks for the consideration guys & gals!