Hello everyone, captain here. Thank you.
For some, this message was probably expected to come with time. Usually happens with me.
I just wanted to take a moment to inform everyone that I am resigning, immediately, from the rank of Senior Moderator and Staff Sergeant within the PLPD. By the time this has been posted, I will be notifying management about my resignation. This is not something that I decided lightly, and to be honest, I've been juggling the decision over the past month or so. If I'm being honest, and I think honesty is very important, I haven't been okay for a while now. I've been carrying a lot emotionally and mentally, and it's gotten to the point where I've been pretending to be fine and just logging onto the server to 'escape', or to help others, but not myself. I've been feeling overwhelmed, burnt out, and honestly kind of lost. The pressure I've put on myself to keep everything together, trying to balance life and this escape from life (PERP), it's been very difficult. And I completely understand that rough days come and go, but I've been having some thoughts that I don't feel comfortable with, and I think it's time to seek help and to start focusing on myself and facing my problems.
Being a part of this community has meant a lot to me over the past many years, and I know that I've been well known for coming and disappearing. I don't know why I do it, but I tend to think I find comfort here within this community because most, most people are friendly and understand you. I want to continue being around, but I think it is best I step away for a while. And for @Aquaa and @Oddy, and for whoever else, thank you. I've loved being a part of the staff team again. Being part of this team and community has helped me more than most people realize. It gave me something to focus on when everything else felt reckless or out of control.
I think that was only temporary for me.
And a special thanks to everyone else who made me laugh, stayed up late with me, and even made me forget about the everyday stressors of life.
Goodbye for now, and I plan to return when I'm in a much, much better state of mind and freedom. <3
For some, this message was probably expected to come with time. Usually happens with me.
I just wanted to take a moment to inform everyone that I am resigning, immediately, from the rank of Senior Moderator and Staff Sergeant within the PLPD. By the time this has been posted, I will be notifying management about my resignation. This is not something that I decided lightly, and to be honest, I've been juggling the decision over the past month or so. If I'm being honest, and I think honesty is very important, I haven't been okay for a while now. I've been carrying a lot emotionally and mentally, and it's gotten to the point where I've been pretending to be fine and just logging onto the server to 'escape', or to help others, but not myself. I've been feeling overwhelmed, burnt out, and honestly kind of lost. The pressure I've put on myself to keep everything together, trying to balance life and this escape from life (PERP), it's been very difficult. And I completely understand that rough days come and go, but I've been having some thoughts that I don't feel comfortable with, and I think it's time to seek help and to start focusing on myself and facing my problems.
Being a part of this community has meant a lot to me over the past many years, and I know that I've been well known for coming and disappearing. I don't know why I do it, but I tend to think I find comfort here within this community because most, most people are friendly and understand you. I want to continue being around, but I think it is best I step away for a while. And for @Aquaa and @Oddy, and for whoever else, thank you. I've loved being a part of the staff team again. Being part of this team and community has helped me more than most people realize. It gave me something to focus on when everything else felt reckless or out of control.
I think that was only temporary for me.
And a special thanks to everyone else who made me laugh, stayed up late with me, and even made me forget about the everyday stressors of life.
Goodbye for now, and I plan to return when I'm in a much, much better state of mind and freedom. <3
I had so much fun, I hope you did too. Currently I'm dealing with same kind of issues as weel and overwhelmed a little bit. I'm wishing you the best for your life and I hope you can recover from all of this.
