Essentially, it's been made clear to me that my motivation to join the server comes sporadically, and as such disallows me from holding a long-term staff rank. However, the new rank of Helper has provided a new solution to me; I've requested to be moved down to this rank so I can help periodically when I have the motivation.
I still do care deeply about the community & a lot of the people in it and as such, I want to be able to help as much as possible, however a staff rank isn't particularly fitting for my skill sets, considering my relatively low tolerance for people acting like idiots, as hypocritical as that may be at times.
I've been considering resigning for a period now, as the weight of obligations simply doesn't mesh well with my already less-than-stable mental state when I'd rather remain in comfort. However, that didn't lessen my desire to help the community as a whole, which significantly weighed on me when I wanted to fully resign, but this isn't really as much of an issue anymore.
I'm in a rather weird spot, however the role of Helper enables me to do what's best for myself & the community at the same time.
I find much greater enjoyment in other things than joining PERP however I recognise that the community has been an integral part of my teenage years & as such I can't help but feel some sentimental value towards it. I'll pop on now and then and I'll do my best to help where possible on the forums.
Thank you all for the support I received both as a staff member and as a community member attempting to attain a staff position, it was a great motivator for a short period but I should've been more self-aware and properly understood my tendencies to burn out on things.
Can't help but feel like I've done a disservice by resigning so soon but at the same time I'd feel a sense of guilt as sitting on a staff role while inactive, when I'm sure that there are much better fits who will provide a lot more to the community than an inactive moderator.
Thank you ever so much to the administration team for providing me this opportunity & @Collier for allowing me this solution to my predicament.
in a bit
I still do care deeply about the community & a lot of the people in it and as such, I want to be able to help as much as possible, however a staff rank isn't particularly fitting for my skill sets, considering my relatively low tolerance for people acting like idiots, as hypocritical as that may be at times.
I've been considering resigning for a period now, as the weight of obligations simply doesn't mesh well with my already less-than-stable mental state when I'd rather remain in comfort. However, that didn't lessen my desire to help the community as a whole, which significantly weighed on me when I wanted to fully resign, but this isn't really as much of an issue anymore.
I'm in a rather weird spot, however the role of Helper enables me to do what's best for myself & the community at the same time.
I find much greater enjoyment in other things than joining PERP however I recognise that the community has been an integral part of my teenage years & as such I can't help but feel some sentimental value towards it. I'll pop on now and then and I'll do my best to help where possible on the forums.
Thank you all for the support I received both as a staff member and as a community member attempting to attain a staff position, it was a great motivator for a short period but I should've been more self-aware and properly understood my tendencies to burn out on things.
Can't help but feel like I've done a disservice by resigning so soon but at the same time I'd feel a sense of guilt as sitting on a staff role while inactive, when I'm sure that there are much better fits who will provide a lot more to the community than an inactive moderator.
Thank you ever so much to the administration team for providing me this opportunity & @Collier for allowing me this solution to my predicament.
in a bit
even though i barely play
