Punishment Type: Ban
Punishment Subtype: Community Wide Ban
Appeal Type: Apology
Which staff member issued the punishment?: @Efan
How long were you banned/blacklisted for?: Permanent
Your Steam Name: proctologist
Your Roleplay Name: Doesn't Remember
Your SteamID: STEAM_0:0:35126079
Why were you punished?: "Community Wide Ban" (States he called someone gay or something of the sort in-character)
Why should this appeal be considered?: Good morning / afternoon PERPheads community.
I suspect many would not think that I would have the audacity to post an apology onto this forum considering the amount of bans I racked up since being a part of the community between 2014 to 2022. It is important to note that the vast majority of my bans and warnings were accumulated during my first few months in 2014. I apologise if this thread appears shortly worded, but I have learned in life it's important to be transparent with people and to say how things are exactly how they are without beating around the bush. I am now going to explain to you plainly what lead to me getting banned, and by no means am I trying to use what happened as an excuse.
During the time leading up to the ban I was in a relationship with an emotionally manipulative lady who would often drive me down and as a result I would reflect my frustrations on members of the community. This relationship had a significant impact on my mental state and judgement. While this may explain to why I was acting the way I was, I am fully aware that this does not excuse anything I had done in any shape or form. Looking back my behaviour fell way below the standards expected of what I would usually get up to and I do regret these decisions I made and the trouble they caused people of this community. Since then, I have made significant changes to my life and have matured considerably as a person. I believe what lead to be getting excluded permanently was making a fake ban request on one of the moderators at the time and I did a voice over insulting him. This was very wrong and I accept full responsibility for that.
For those blissfully unaware, I joined this community in 2014, contributed significantly to the start of the PLPD, and became a moderator for 6 months in 2017 to name a few of my longstanding achievements for PERPheads. Over the past four years I have had plenty of time to reflect on those mistakes and to learn from them. These days my life is in a completely different direction and in a very positive place. The factors within my life that were contributing towards my behaviour such as my place of employment, has effectively been scrubbed enabling me to build a stable future for myself. On a side note, I am a Mental Health First Aider and I now understand the circumstances which had led to how I was.
I understand there are concerns particularly about my previous bans, and perhaps even a certain few funny videos including the Pirates of PERPheads. I'm not asking for those concerns to be ignored. I'm asking for the opportunity to demonstrate that I have changed and if given another chance, make every effort to be a positive member of the PERP community following the rules and standards expected.
Ultimately I can't change the decisions I made in the past or ask people to forget about it. If that was the case I'd have no bans on record and I'd be head moderator. Whether my appeal is accepted or denied, I appreciate the time taken to read it and consider it.
Side note; there are more crucial details that lead up to the events that I'm simply not comfortable sharing within a public forum. I believe there are certain things in life that I would rather prefer to be private. I'm happy to explain in my more detail within a private setting if need be.
Posted on behalf of the right honourable Proctologist (he complained about me doxxing his real name which was his RP name for years), I'll relay any relevant queries or concerns to him for appropriate response, I watched him write this, my condolences to whomever must read it. - JFedor (Robert Crane)
Punishment Subtype: Community Wide Ban
Appeal Type: Apology
Which staff member issued the punishment?: @Efan
How long were you banned/blacklisted for?: Permanent
Your Steam Name: proctologist
Your Roleplay Name: Doesn't Remember
Your SteamID: STEAM_0:0:35126079
Why were you punished?: "Community Wide Ban" (States he called someone gay or something of the sort in-character)
Why should this appeal be considered?: Good morning / afternoon PERPheads community.
I suspect many would not think that I would have the audacity to post an apology onto this forum considering the amount of bans I racked up since being a part of the community between 2014 to 2022. It is important to note that the vast majority of my bans and warnings were accumulated during my first few months in 2014. I apologise if this thread appears shortly worded, but I have learned in life it's important to be transparent with people and to say how things are exactly how they are without beating around the bush. I am now going to explain to you plainly what lead to me getting banned, and by no means am I trying to use what happened as an excuse.
During the time leading up to the ban I was in a relationship with an emotionally manipulative lady who would often drive me down and as a result I would reflect my frustrations on members of the community. This relationship had a significant impact on my mental state and judgement. While this may explain to why I was acting the way I was, I am fully aware that this does not excuse anything I had done in any shape or form. Looking back my behaviour fell way below the standards expected of what I would usually get up to and I do regret these decisions I made and the trouble they caused people of this community. Since then, I have made significant changes to my life and have matured considerably as a person. I believe what lead to be getting excluded permanently was making a fake ban request on one of the moderators at the time and I did a voice over insulting him. This was very wrong and I accept full responsibility for that.
For those blissfully unaware, I joined this community in 2014, contributed significantly to the start of the PLPD, and became a moderator for 6 months in 2017 to name a few of my longstanding achievements for PERPheads. Over the past four years I have had plenty of time to reflect on those mistakes and to learn from them. These days my life is in a completely different direction and in a very positive place. The factors within my life that were contributing towards my behaviour such as my place of employment, has effectively been scrubbed enabling me to build a stable future for myself. On a side note, I am a Mental Health First Aider and I now understand the circumstances which had led to how I was.
I understand there are concerns particularly about my previous bans, and perhaps even a certain few funny videos including the Pirates of PERPheads. I'm not asking for those concerns to be ignored. I'm asking for the opportunity to demonstrate that I have changed and if given another chance, make every effort to be a positive member of the PERP community following the rules and standards expected.
Ultimately I can't change the decisions I made in the past or ask people to forget about it. If that was the case I'd have no bans on record and I'd be head moderator. Whether my appeal is accepted or denied, I appreciate the time taken to read it and consider it.
Side note; there are more crucial details that lead up to the events that I'm simply not comfortable sharing within a public forum. I believe there are certain things in life that I would rather prefer to be private. I'm happy to explain in my more detail within a private setting if need be.
Posted on behalf of the right honourable Proctologist (he complained about me doxxing his real name which was his RP name for years), I'll relay any relevant queries or concerns to him for appropriate response, I watched him write this, my condolences to whomever must read it. - JFedor (Robert Crane)
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