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What motivated u to improve yourself irl
- Thread starter Tarone Idrin (mohammed)
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So shortly before I resigned earlier this year, I realised that I was on a pretty bad spiral where I would let my anxieties, insecurities and other negative thoughts consume me which led to me entering a toxic phase of self-destructive behaviour where I felt like I was an awful and vile person and needed validation to prove that I was, even if I knew I would regret my decisions once I calmed down - ultimately it led to me saying some really nasty stuff to friends and those I cared about during these moments of anger in this self-destructive state and I realised I needed to change because I was genuinely terrified of what I was turning into as these self-destructive stages became more frequent.
I ended up reaching out to my local GP and got referred to the my region's therapy services. It took quite a while for me to actually start (NHS wait times for ya) but I've learned more how to look after and be positive about myself and am learning coping mechanisms to reduce the impact my anxieties have been having via cognitive behavioural therapy. I'm starting to feel more like myself in a sense that I haven't felt in quite a while. I'm still participating in therapy and my therapist is quite pleased with the progress I have been making so I'm still a work in progress but I'm getting there.
I ended up reaching out to my local GP and got referred to the my region's therapy services. It took quite a while for me to actually start (NHS wait times for ya) but I've learned more how to look after and be positive about myself and am learning coping mechanisms to reduce the impact my anxieties have been having via cognitive behavioural therapy. I'm starting to feel more like myself in a sense that I haven't felt in quite a while. I'm still participating in therapy and my therapist is quite pleased with the progress I have been making so I'm still a work in progress but I'm getting there.
same with the others aswell Be proud of where u have come too now! Not really willing to share my story hear but I understand this
well done proud of you for taking that step! It will be tough but ur a good lad, U will get past it!
I never improved, I embraced my shittiness and just respect those around me not to show it. Don't change who you are deep down to meet an individual's needs, just respect their wishes not to be berated and keep your thoughts to yourself. You can always laugh at someone in your head, but you can't take back laughing in their face.
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I had a really terrible job that was physically and mentally over-demanding, long hours, terrible commute, etc. I wanted a life that prioritized the things that I enjoyed, and allowed me more freedom for my girl, family, & hobbies, so I locked in for about 6 months and did something about it. Now instead of worrying about mental health from the work equivalent of hell, I stress about randomly getting a Microsoft Teams call in the middle of perp raids from the comfort of my home. I take my peace and happiness extremely seriously so that was the dominant motivating factor.
I don't feel so good about myself either, but I try every day to get better and better and to train and run and eat healthy. The only thing that's a little difficult is my sleep rhythm. I sometimes go to bed late, which is so bad for me. I have to try and stop that, but I have to be nice and put a smile on other people's faces and try and be the best version of myself and a better person.
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Doesn't even compete with cigarettes
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Honestly fairly similar story to Super. Struggled with mental health for a long time and caused pretty bad self destructive episodes (Just look at my ban history), but outside of that I'd purposefully sabotage friendships, relationships and everything in my life because I felt like I was a bad person and I deserved it. I saw how much this cycle hurt everyone around me for absolutely no reason and started realising the effects I actually had on other people.
Finally got fed up with the cycle and went to the GP and after a long wait got medicated for ADHD and coping mechanisms for depression/autism which started a change to where I felt good enough to actually start therapy and be productive with it and everyday is a struggle in some way I have grown a lot, I'm not perfect but I don't think anyone truly is and the best you can do is always try to make the next day better.
Finally got fed up with the cycle and went to the GP and after a long wait got medicated for ADHD and coping mechanisms for depression/autism which started a change to where I felt good enough to actually start therapy and be productive with it and everyday is a struggle in some way I have grown a lot, I'm not perfect but I don't think anyone truly is and the best you can do is always try to make the next day better.
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Life story incoming.
When I was around 8, I was diagnosed with cancer, Ewing syndrome. It was a bad one, so bad the chances were not on my side, around 70% of dying. I started a long way from there, with multiple chemotherapy sessions. Hair falls off, and side effects kick in. It was so bad I didn't want to hold on anymore. However, somehow the nurses and the doctors were always positive, so I held on. I finished the chemo sessions and finally got ready for the surgery. Surgery was a success; almost everything was taken. Just about 2-5 more chemo sessions later, I was a free man. I felt happy, my hair grew back, I was feeling more energetic, etc.
Around 1.5 or 2 years later, in one of my routine blood checks, we noticed my red blood HGB and red blood PLT were extremely low, so low any infection would be fatal for me. I was given an extreme amount of blood, 2-3 big packages. I was diagnosed with bone marrow failure due to high chemotherapy. I seriously questioned everything, like what the fuck did I do to deserve this and stuff. And again, a long journey began again. I was getting blood to me every 2-3 days. My family was looking for blood from different people every day. Finally they found a matching bone marrow for me; however, they gave up after thinking about it. It was a woman and an old-age one, so they didn't want to risk it. I was given bone marrow from my mother, an unmatched one. My father tried too, but he had some heart problems, so they didn't want to.
The bone marrow transplant process was fucking horrible. It's easy to give it; however, it takes around 90 days in 1 room with no visitors. A singular small infection could kill you because you literally don't have an immune system. So many injuries started occurring in my mouth; I couldn't eat for 1 month straight. I was fed with an IV. So many infections happened in the process, but I finally succeeded. After this, some months later my blood cells started normalizing. However, my body still hasn't fully accepted the bone marrow to this day. And I'm still having major side effects 3 to 6 months later. From infections in my bladder to extreme pain in my body sometimes. I take around 25 pills a day at the moment.
In this process I saw children literally pass away in the room next to me. I was waking up at 4 AM in the morning to mothers crying. Because I was small, I didn't think so much about it, but all of this made me more mature, more resilient. I still don't go to school, so I don't really have much of a social life, unfortunately. Online games like this help me a lot, of course.
So, that's it, I guess. Hopefully one day I will see the days of my becoming fully cured.
