Some of you may have noticed already that I've been banned, you're quick to notice.
And I didn't do this for memes either. My day was going by normally, really. Several things were going well in fact, Tom hosted the hide & seek events which were quite fun and was hanging out with random people like I usually do afterwards.
I've said this to tom, and I'll repeat this here.
I told myself I was eventually going to do this, and in my opinion the server's been going downhill for ages. I stopped playing on purpose to stop myself from doing something like this, I had the urge back when I was Corporal and said "I'd rather mass RDM", but instead I resigned. I wasn't enjoying myself at all. All I was doing was keeping up hours in the PD because I didn't really want to lose TFU. I was essentially waiting for the server to pick up again, be better. I was time and time again disappointed in the direction the community took, over and over again. Hostilities eventually became the norm, there's an endless stream of threats and actual ARs & IAs, no one ever says a positive thing anymore, or tries to help anyone else, try to slow down, think a little.
No.
Up til recently, most of the updates have been off-track of what "Serious RP" is, it hasn't embraced that fact, in fact it's done the exact opposite, and all the otherkids with their people i'm around bring this up very often, "how it's become DarkRP, wasn't what it used to be, server's going downhill, perp is dying, no updates, shit updates, shit staff, fuck ayjay, fuck tiny, bring moron back, bring jordan back". Etc, etc.
I'm tired of it, I'm done. All I ever see are things done in the best interest of themselves at this point, I never saw Ayjay contribute a single thing to the community as a whole. He thought it appropriate to delete a fundamental part of the forums, one of the things that unifies the active part of the community, the shoutbox itself, simply because he couldn't be bothered to ban someone who broke some rules. I had a habit of checking shoutbox whenever I ran out of things to do, or while I was loading something. It was annoying and left me out of the loop for what felt like ages.
Staff punishing people isn't a part of why I did what I did, it's a part of any server that has rules, and I willingly committed to my own acts after snapping, I had realized, and I'd lost it in the moment after shooting the tires of a vehicle that was fleeing, that was the point I snapped, the driver and passenger hopped out, and I continued shooting killing the passenger and driver, I shot a guy who had killed me earlier, who was nearby, then my fellow TFO who was stopping the vehicle, then a spectator who decided standing next to a rogue cop was a good idea, shortly after I ran around and spotted more people, resisted the urge to continue my rampage, went off duty and disconnected as I had completed my original goal, it was as simple as revenge, and I'm not going to go into further detail, or post a video.
I knew I had gone ballistic and there wasn't a 'fuck go back' button either. Several incidents today were the trigger point for my actions, some of which were bad timing, others blatant RDM.
I did my best to contribute to the community, help fix things that were flawed, suggest new things, and so on. I even thought about applying for enforcer, but the stress eventually got to me and I decided "fuck it". These are currently open bug reports, things that I've been finding because I've been searching for them, exclusively so I could help get it fixed and to improve quality of life on the server.
I have more open bug reports than most, and a huge spike in the bug reports I've made recently within the past 2-4 months. These are all bugs I imagined could be abused, one of which gave you invincibility, though was fixed before my bug report was acknowledged.
At this point I'd rather lurk on the forums, be a spectator, see the better moments on the forums than sit in the soup collecting toxic waste from a near empty barrel that is actively corroding.
I'll probably regret this later, but that's future me's problem.
Peace.
Oh and enjoy this video from today, the day I Mass RDM'd.
I threw it together quickly with no audio level peaks, so I was going in blind regarding audio.
Yet again, I'll be lurking. I don't know what I'll do in the future, so I can't say I won't make an apology, again, future me's problem.
Note to staff
Deleting this thread for any minor offense you might have taken will be your mistake, and in doing so shows how little you care for individuals, I doubt I'll be posting much on the forums outside of the shoutbox, so much of the reasoning as to why I've done the things I've done will be gone, feel free to edit and censor anything you believe to break the forum rules. After all, the winners write the history, right?
And I didn't do this for memes either. My day was going by normally, really. Several things were going well in fact, Tom hosted the hide & seek events which were quite fun and was hanging out with random people like I usually do afterwards.
I've said this to tom, and I'll repeat this here.
I told myself I was eventually going to do this, and in my opinion the server's been going downhill for ages. I stopped playing on purpose to stop myself from doing something like this, I had the urge back when I was Corporal and said "I'd rather mass RDM", but instead I resigned. I wasn't enjoying myself at all. All I was doing was keeping up hours in the PD because I didn't really want to lose TFU. I was essentially waiting for the server to pick up again, be better. I was time and time again disappointed in the direction the community took, over and over again. Hostilities eventually became the norm, there's an endless stream of threats and actual ARs & IAs, no one ever says a positive thing anymore, or tries to help anyone else, try to slow down, think a little.
No.
Up til recently, most of the updates have been off-track of what "Serious RP" is, it hasn't embraced that fact, in fact it's done the exact opposite, and all the other
I'm tired of it, I'm done. All I ever see are things done in the best interest of themselves at this point, I never saw Ayjay contribute a single thing to the community as a whole. He thought it appropriate to delete a fundamental part of the forums, one of the things that unifies the active part of the community, the shoutbox itself, simply because he couldn't be bothered to ban someone who broke some rules. I had a habit of checking shoutbox whenever I ran out of things to do, or while I was loading something. It was annoying and left me out of the loop for what felt like ages.
Staff punishing people isn't a part of why I did what I did, it's a part of any server that has rules, and I willingly committed to my own acts after snapping, I had realized, and I'd lost it in the moment after shooting the tires of a vehicle that was fleeing, that was the point I snapped, the driver and passenger hopped out, and I continued shooting killing the passenger and driver, I shot a guy who had killed me earlier, who was nearby, then my fellow TFO who was stopping the vehicle, then a spectator who decided standing next to a rogue cop was a good idea, shortly after I ran around and spotted more people, resisted the urge to continue my rampage, went off duty and disconnected as I had completed my original goal, it was as simple as revenge, and I'm not going to go into further detail, or post a video.
I knew I had gone ballistic and there wasn't a 'fuck go back' button either. Several incidents today were the trigger point for my actions, some of which were bad timing, others blatant RDM.
I did my best to contribute to the community, help fix things that were flawed, suggest new things, and so on. I even thought about applying for enforcer, but the stress eventually got to me and I decided "fuck it". These are currently open bug reports, things that I've been finding because I've been searching for them, exclusively so I could help get it fixed and to improve quality of life on the server.
I have more open bug reports than most, and a huge spike in the bug reports I've made recently within the past 2-4 months. These are all bugs I imagined could be abused, one of which gave you invincibility, though was fixed before my bug report was acknowledged.
At this point I'd rather lurk on the forums, be a spectator, see the better moments on the forums than sit in the soup collecting toxic waste from a near empty barrel that is actively corroding.
I'll probably regret this later, but that's future me's problem.
Peace.
Oh and enjoy this video from today, the day I Mass RDM'd.
Yet again, I'll be lurking. I don't know what I'll do in the future, so I can't say I won't make an apology, again, future me's problem.
Note to staff
Deleting this thread for any minor offense you might have taken will be your mistake, and in doing so shows how little you care for individuals, I doubt I'll be posting much on the forums outside of the shoutbox, so much of the reasoning as to why I've done the things I've done will be gone, feel free to edit and censor anything you believe to break the forum rules. After all, the winners write the history, right?
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thanks for events today
