Hey guys. I wanna keep this decently short and comprehensible, i'll probably end up failing at that but i guess we'll find out. And maybe this is better suited to not even post at all. But i guess i don't want people to worry about the reason for why i suddenly left the dc server and i may delete my forums account, haven't really decided yet.
I'm leaving the community for good. I used to stop by occasionally in the past year or so but i haven't felt the true spark for perp for longer than that. Even hopping on to minge wasnt fun anymore. Perp used to be a way for me to spend my spare time in a fun way, but now it's just yet another discord server i'm in. I've been going through a difficult time for the past 8 or so years, with the last 2-2.5 being the worst, which has drained me mentally and physically. And during those 2-2.5 years perp was one of the main ways i unwound and had fun, which i relied on very heavily for my mental wellbeing. But in doing so it has subconsciously connected it with this period of my life. So i honestly just wanna forget about perp, in a way. But the experiences will still stick with me. Even if you think it doesn't make 100% total sense, (nothing does to me either nowadays) this still seemed to me like the best course of action. Cutting it out of my life like ive done with so many other things, not always by choice.
I'm trying my best to get better and this is part of it, hopes are lower than ever on every front. But im still trying to hang on by that thin thread, frayed and worn, and very few people keeping it intact.
I tried to not overthink about how to write this. I don't want it to get too deep or too into detail, but wanna convey that no, im not doing good, but with a little context. I can't think of anything else. So, that's that i guess. I hope for others to have as much fun here as i did in my first year. Thank you to everyone who made my perp experience so great. There's many that i will remember dearly.
Happy Halloween, merry Christmas, and happy New Year for many years to come. Love you all!
-Liano,
Shaquille Oatmeal/Niko Bellictova
I'm leaving the community for good. I used to stop by occasionally in the past year or so but i haven't felt the true spark for perp for longer than that. Even hopping on to minge wasnt fun anymore. Perp used to be a way for me to spend my spare time in a fun way, but now it's just yet another discord server i'm in. I've been going through a difficult time for the past 8 or so years, with the last 2-2.5 being the worst, which has drained me mentally and physically. And during those 2-2.5 years perp was one of the main ways i unwound and had fun, which i relied on very heavily for my mental wellbeing. But in doing so it has subconsciously connected it with this period of my life. So i honestly just wanna forget about perp, in a way. But the experiences will still stick with me. Even if you think it doesn't make 100% total sense, (nothing does to me either nowadays) this still seemed to me like the best course of action. Cutting it out of my life like ive done with so many other things, not always by choice.
I'm trying my best to get better and this is part of it, hopes are lower than ever on every front. But im still trying to hang on by that thin thread, frayed and worn, and very few people keeping it intact.
I tried to not overthink about how to write this. I don't want it to get too deep or too into detail, but wanna convey that no, im not doing good, but with a little context. I can't think of anything else. So, that's that i guess. I hope for others to have as much fun here as i did in my first year. Thank you to everyone who made my perp experience so great. There's many that i will remember dearly.
Happy Halloween, merry Christmas, and happy New Year for many years to come. Love you all!
-Liano,
Shaquille Oatmeal/Niko Bellictova
