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Punishment Type: Ban
Appeal Type: Apology
Which staff member issued the punishment?: BnjE
How long were you banned/blacklisted for?: Permanent
Your Steam Name: Charlie
Your Roleplay Name: Eric Matthews
Your SteamID: STEAM_0:1:26235258
Why were you banned/blacklisted?: Incredibly vile comments in OOC
Why should this appeal be considered?: I want to note for the reader that I decided to take a different approach to an apology appeal today, not simply to spam the page with ‘I’m sorry’ and ‘apologises’ but to try to express how I’ve felt from the time of my ban and most importantly, how I feel now, upon reflection. Today, I am going to be completely upfront and honest, and I feel this is the best way to convey my apology.
As I write this appeal today, I am reminded it is the twenty-seventh day of the month. Today is the 27th of September 2023, my final days of 2023 summer are over, and I have long since returned to school. The closure of summer thus sparks the yellow embers, the fall of the leaf, signalling the beginning of autumn here in Britain. The start of schooling, of education and most importantly study. A summer shifted by regrets and exile, unable to play on Perpheads with friends, caused by no fault other than my own. I am reminded how time jumps, almost like a flip book. As the pages excel in speed, faster and faster as the scenery changes, though they linger for so long when lived out in real time. But what’s this? A step taken back for a wider view and the season had started and ended as though an alarm clock sounded and was swiftly swatted back into noiselessness. Gameplay missed from no fault other than my own, fun that should’ve been had playing Perpheads with friends, missed.
I was banned on June 14th 2023, earlier this year. I was initially banned for a month, until making an apology on the forums, which was noticed by a senior administrator and upgraded consequently to a permanent ban. I would be dishonest in saying that I have not done any deep reflections on why I made the comments I had made and why I thought these were appropriate not only at that specific time, but at any time. They were disgusting, and do not reflect upon my character at all. I am not one to pass on the blame to other factors as I aim to live my life taking full accountability for all my actions that I commit. Although, saying this, I can briefly explain why these abhorrent comments were made.
I am seventeen years old and I am aware that pornography is becoming more and more of a problem in today’s society, especially among the youth. This leads to an over sexualisation of culture and individuals in general, from excessive porn consumption. I have been a victim of this and have adopted such mind-sets as ‘NoFap’ and ‘Porn Reboot’ etc to tackle this problem – I would like to take this opportunity to state that no, I do not have a sexual attraction to children, at the basis of my comments which were made in an in-group setting with other users which were also banned for our repulsive comments. It was a joke. A disgusting joke, but still a joke. A joke that I see now was influenced directly by pornography problems that were visible in my own life at the time, but through outreaching, help and support groups I have managed to tame and diffuse.
I would like to remind viewers that this was an isolated incident; no situation like this has ever occurred before whilst I was playing on the server, this was a one off deep misjudgement on my behalf and would never be repeated again.
I am not being facetious as I write this. I am being open, completely open, and maybe too open to an online community but as I said initially I want to be completely open and upfront about both myself and the actions I have committed. All in all, there is no excuse ultimately for the messages I sent in the Out Of Character chat on that day, it was disgusting, abhorrent and completely inappropriate. I have spent over three months and the entirety of my summer reflecting upon the consequences of my actions and I understand the seriousness of the offences I had committed. I am sorry.
Appeal Type: Apology
Which staff member issued the punishment?: BnjE
How long were you banned/blacklisted for?: Permanent
Your Steam Name: Charlie
Your Roleplay Name: Eric Matthews
Your SteamID: STEAM_0:1:26235258
Why were you banned/blacklisted?: Incredibly vile comments in OOC
Why should this appeal be considered?: I want to note for the reader that I decided to take a different approach to an apology appeal today, not simply to spam the page with ‘I’m sorry’ and ‘apologises’ but to try to express how I’ve felt from the time of my ban and most importantly, how I feel now, upon reflection. Today, I am going to be completely upfront and honest, and I feel this is the best way to convey my apology.
As I write this appeal today, I am reminded it is the twenty-seventh day of the month. Today is the 27th of September 2023, my final days of 2023 summer are over, and I have long since returned to school. The closure of summer thus sparks the yellow embers, the fall of the leaf, signalling the beginning of autumn here in Britain. The start of schooling, of education and most importantly study. A summer shifted by regrets and exile, unable to play on Perpheads with friends, caused by no fault other than my own. I am reminded how time jumps, almost like a flip book. As the pages excel in speed, faster and faster as the scenery changes, though they linger for so long when lived out in real time. But what’s this? A step taken back for a wider view and the season had started and ended as though an alarm clock sounded and was swiftly swatted back into noiselessness. Gameplay missed from no fault other than my own, fun that should’ve been had playing Perpheads with friends, missed.
I was banned on June 14th 2023, earlier this year. I was initially banned for a month, until making an apology on the forums, which was noticed by a senior administrator and upgraded consequently to a permanent ban. I would be dishonest in saying that I have not done any deep reflections on why I made the comments I had made and why I thought these were appropriate not only at that specific time, but at any time. They were disgusting, and do not reflect upon my character at all. I am not one to pass on the blame to other factors as I aim to live my life taking full accountability for all my actions that I commit. Although, saying this, I can briefly explain why these abhorrent comments were made.
I am seventeen years old and I am aware that pornography is becoming more and more of a problem in today’s society, especially among the youth. This leads to an over sexualisation of culture and individuals in general, from excessive porn consumption. I have been a victim of this and have adopted such mind-sets as ‘NoFap’ and ‘Porn Reboot’ etc to tackle this problem – I would like to take this opportunity to state that no, I do not have a sexual attraction to children, at the basis of my comments which were made in an in-group setting with other users which were also banned for our repulsive comments. It was a joke. A disgusting joke, but still a joke. A joke that I see now was influenced directly by pornography problems that were visible in my own life at the time, but through outreaching, help and support groups I have managed to tame and diffuse.
I would like to remind viewers that this was an isolated incident; no situation like this has ever occurred before whilst I was playing on the server, this was a one off deep misjudgement on my behalf and would never be repeated again.
I am not being facetious as I write this. I am being open, completely open, and maybe too open to an online community but as I said initially I want to be completely open and upfront about both myself and the actions I have committed. All in all, there is no excuse ultimately for the messages I sent in the Out Of Character chat on that day, it was disgusting, abhorrent and completely inappropriate. I have spent over three months and the entirety of my summer reflecting upon the consequences of my actions and I understand the seriousness of the offences I had committed. I am sorry.
