I know how you feel buddy (Atleast almost).
Around 2 years ago, i was being casted for some TV series shizzle. I was constantly being called in every week and sometimes 2 times a week. So i had to figure out some way to get all the way over to a city pretty far away, then also figure out how i would get back again. This went on for over 4 months.
This had a serious effect on my health. I was so happy that i was 50/50 on getting this head-role in a TV show that would be casted all around the country. But at the same time i was so scared, and i didnt know why. I had a constant fear that my life would turn to shit if i got this role. Because of this, i started doubting myself, and what i was able to do.
One day, when i got called up for a casting, they told me that i was going to have to stay at one of the casters house overnight, so we could work for 2 straight days. When i went to sleep that night, i couldnt sleep. I was shaking, sweating, crying and all these things were happening to me. And it didnt make any sense to me, why this was happening. I did manage to fall asleep after over 5 hours into the night. I ended out getting almost no sleep, and being completely shit the next day.
Even after i went back home, and everything was supposed to be back to normal, i couldnt sleep. And i was panicking constantly. This went on for around a year, where i was almost feeling like a little baby who couldnt sleep (Which made me feel like a little bitch, and not making matters better whatsoever).
Till this day, i still have some sort of panics when i try to sleep sometimes, but im doing almost as good as before now.
Conclusion: In my case, it was probably caused by stress and the constant expectations that was put onto me. Maybe you might have been under stress recently? Or have you felt bad for a while?
I hope you get better soon buddy, and remember, im always here if you need to talk to someone.
