You're your own person, if you wish to rejoin that's completley your own independent choice and because it's your own choice.. it's the right choice.
We can't tell you if we want you back, because that's not needed and we don't know what you're going to be like if you return.
Your inability to follow a structure of rules is quite worrying, advice to you would simply be don't fuck around as much as you used to. We do want you back, because you're Chicken and you're a funny, nice guy. But the thing is you have a lot to work on.