Okay, so first off I would like to say that this is not me being an attentionwhore...
I didn't really know where to put this so I put it here...
Okay, so before I joined perp I was extremely afraid of making mistakes, I hated to speak openly, was very unconfident and I had a big fear of failure, which caused a lot of stress because I had to do everything perfect.
I thought that whenever I would make a mistake someone would come and make fun of it, embarrass me in any form or way.
Then a friend of mine asked me if I could join him, I joined him, so I prepared myself for anyone laughing at me because I was new and didn't know what to do.
Perp was a complete new thing for me, I joined and had to change my name into a roleplay name, I didnt know so I freaked a bit out, called myself Mister Spook...
I knew it was wrong as my friend told me that it is not a valid name, that's when I felt the feeling of failure come up, I tried to stay calm but nearly exploded because I was very ashamed...
then Ajay, back then still a mod, came up and saw my name, I thought that he would make fun of it or anything, but no. He just said: "that's not really a valid name, here have a name change"
I felt really relieved because it turned out very well at the end.
Then my first mistake was made, I crossed the intersection, So i got picked up immediatly, I felt like shit because "I broke 2 rules in 5 minutes", I was expecting to see messages like "oh my god this sweater is so stupid" in OOC, however they never came, The Mod, I believe it was @GraveDinosaur explained to me how i was breaking the rules, and explained everything calmly... Again, I felt really relieved...
I managed to become a police officer, got a bit of confidence, and got assigned by @Samuel Sheppard to my first partners @jimmythehamster and George Cole, I had the time of my life and they showed me everything, I made a lot of other friends and everything went better, because this staff team and this whole community in general was so amazing to me...
On school my confidence was going up... I got better grades for all the presentations and other things where I had to do things in public, I wasn't afraid of asking things anymore and my fear of failure got less, people were telling me I was doing way better...
So thanks Perpheads community and every one that made this possible for helping me out with my problems, I changed a lot and I just want to say thanks for that...
so, thanks!
lots of hugs and kisses,
-Spook
I didn't really know where to put this so I put it here...
Okay, so before I joined perp I was extremely afraid of making mistakes, I hated to speak openly, was very unconfident and I had a big fear of failure, which caused a lot of stress because I had to do everything perfect.
I thought that whenever I would make a mistake someone would come and make fun of it, embarrass me in any form or way.
Then a friend of mine asked me if I could join him, I joined him, so I prepared myself for anyone laughing at me because I was new and didn't know what to do.
Perp was a complete new thing for me, I joined and had to change my name into a roleplay name, I didnt know so I freaked a bit out, called myself Mister Spook...
I knew it was wrong as my friend told me that it is not a valid name, that's when I felt the feeling of failure come up, I tried to stay calm but nearly exploded because I was very ashamed...
then Ajay, back then still a mod, came up and saw my name, I thought that he would make fun of it or anything, but no. He just said: "that's not really a valid name, here have a name change"
I felt really relieved because it turned out very well at the end.
Then my first mistake was made, I crossed the intersection, So i got picked up immediatly, I felt like shit because "I broke 2 rules in 5 minutes", I was expecting to see messages like "oh my god this sweater is so stupid" in OOC, however they never came, The Mod, I believe it was @GraveDinosaur explained to me how i was breaking the rules, and explained everything calmly... Again, I felt really relieved...
I managed to become a police officer, got a bit of confidence, and got assigned by @Samuel Sheppard to my first partners @jimmythehamster and George Cole, I had the time of my life and they showed me everything, I made a lot of other friends and everything went better, because this staff team and this whole community in general was so amazing to me...
On school my confidence was going up... I got better grades for all the presentations and other things where I had to do things in public, I wasn't afraid of asking things anymore and my fear of failure got less, people were telling me I was doing way better...
So thanks Perpheads community and every one that made this possible for helping me out with my problems, I changed a lot and I just want to say thanks for that...
so, thanks!
lots of hugs and kisses,
-Spook
. I also had a stupid name and then ran over the intersection like it was nothing.
